Monthly thoughts, inspirations and musings from our Creative Lead, Maria Mendoza.
I painted this 2 weeks ago while I was experiencing what I considered to be my quarter-life-crisis. I was dreading my 25th birthday for months, thinking that 25 was the age at which you should have your life together. At the time, this painting was representative of how my life was 25% done. I had experienced some serious changes the year before: I moved out of my parents’ house and into a condo, bought furniture for the first time, got a dog, moved into an apartment and fell out of love. I did a lot of growing up and I did it fast. I needed a moment to stop and breathe, but it just didn’t seem to be happening.
Finally, on October 18 2015, it was my birthday. The night before, I hosted a party in my new apartment and all the clarity I ever needed came to me. I gave a toast at exactly midnight and saw my closest friends from different parts of my life gathered around supporting me. I remembered how each of them helped me through conflict: that bad day at work, that time I had my heart broken, the day I was terrified to move out on my own, that time I was in a fight with another friend – all of it, over. And I realized that the pressure I put on myself to “be an adult” (whatever that might mean) was just all in my head.
Now, I see this painting as a representation of the fact that I still have 75% of my life to go. The different colours show the ongoing journey I’m taking to learn, create, laugh and just live. I used to be so worried about what I hadn’t done yet but now all I’m thinking about is how much more I’ll get to do.
So here it is: 25+75 by Maria Mendoza.